it's late....i just had to say...these? words of no consequence...

i just sparked an ambiguity of perception...she argued, she demolished...and it makes me feel so much better that i wrote that piece...i'm sorry for not being humble but my writing started something...an exchange, a negating projection of views against my own...it ignited a clash, a multiplicity of meaning so that subversion was possible and thereafter...progress in thought...because i'm not aiming to be the last word on something...see me as a stepping stone, and i would be more than grateful to be considered as such...(thanks tito dins for teaching me this)...thank you thank you, my forever teachers of life...


on a different subject....i just had my left finger nails painted black...and left the right "untouched"...now, the act of having your nails covered with color may be reserved for women...but i believe that is my stand towards androgyny(forgive my spelling if it may be wrong)...my peers may ridicule me, my elders might wonder in doubt of my sexual orientation...but aren't we all born from both men and women?...enter this world as a female and still you seek a father...or be born a male and be devastated from an absentee mother...in so far, we need both sexes to live a healthy life...so if we keep to the standards of the dogmatic-like division of meeting the requirements of certain sexual norms...would it not contradict our own nature of having both sexes incorporated in us since birth? since sexual division is merely a construct of a sensitive political "looking glass"...shouldn't we rely more on nature, which is considered as in-borne rather than an unstable set of definitions built by an idea that is just as unstable? we should accept our androgyny(HA! it's only the spelling of the word, so who cares...it's meaning may not be the same for too long anyway) , and break the barriers that limits the over all equality of the sexes...(such a romantic view would not be expected to go far, but at least it is said)